Arafed woman sitting on the floor with a candle and headphones

I know I do t like this thought but I’d rather ask and also I know god will take care of it but still. I know I listen to music a lot with headphones on and I don’t pay attention to any media also news. And also that when he returns everyone will know because of the internet but I’m not even in the knowing of what’s even happening today other than la and sanfransico are a crap shoot and isreal is having issues. I don’t wanna get involved and do something wrong because that’s how I usually do things so I just sat here and prayed that people are safe and that god can take care of them and if some people had to go it was there time to go and that I hope they knew him… but also if the trumpets sound what if I miss them by not paying attention? It all goes back to also for 3 years of my childhood I had a reacting nightmare where Jesus took all of my family and left me stranded on the front lawn and each time it would keep happening. Eventually I figured out why by praying but now I don’t remember what it even was. But this thought pattern or thought keeps coming up.

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