I want to raise the resolution of my thoughts about life and death

I want to raise the resolution of my thoughts about life and death. I want to convince my heart. I want to understand it to the fullest. I want to use that as a driving force to move forward. I want to feel my own energy. It's okay to lower the hurdle that I can accept. I want to know how to lower that hurdle. I want to find my own pace. I want to get on that pace. I want to expand the way I see things to the extent that it doesn't negatively affect me so that I don't get thrown off balance. I don't want to be tied down to one concept. I want to be clear about what I want to do and don't want to do at the moment. I want to be in a state where anything goes, but nothing goes either. My mind is always in a state where I can think, but I want it to function optimally without thinking. I want to actually feel the wonder of existence of the world, myself, and others. I want to feel the rhythm and resonate with it in the gap between the world, my destiny, and the waves of creativity. I want to know specifically to what extent I can consciously move myself and influence the situation. I want to know whether that is accidental, inevitable, neither, or both. Everything is one side, both, and neither. A perpetual energy that exists but does not exist. Cutting it out and recognizing it is limitless. There are countless different ways to cut it out.、It's okay to cut it out, so that you can think that the things floating around are beautiful. Don't just be drunk, open your eyes wide, there is something in this world that is certain、There are some things that are uncertain、What is uncertain is certain. What is certain is each々I want to experience the happiness that I feel without being stuck in the status quo.、I want to keep this state going while keeping the points in check. I think it's necessary to clear my mind.、 Abstracting and compressing concepts

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