(boy) (15 age)Have you same goes for my ever loved me or asked if you had any pr

(boy) (15 age)Have you same goes for my ever loved me or asked if you had any problems? Think about it, let me see. Have you thought about it? It's good. Then, keep the answer to yourself. Don't tell me. But really, whatever you think in your mind, the best thing to do is to keep it in your mind. Whatever it is, forget it. It seems to me that I'm talking nonsense. I'm too lazy to write it on paper. I need to keep up with the times :))) I've been alone for as long as I can remember :D It was actually good somewhere. I felt like my brain had stopped working, I couldn't think properly, I thought it would come and go, it didn't, I don't want to live, in fact, I have a whole life ahead of me, but I don't want or want it, I don't understand, I feel like I'm in emptiness, I was calling my mother my friend, but she said we are not friends :( If it continues like this for a little longer, 3-4 days later. A year ago, I said I would never think of such a thing :) I wish I hadn't, everything is happening so fast, I don't understand, I couldn't be myself, people everywhere were telling me that I was talking fast, I tried to speak as slowly as I could, they didn't include me, I became like them, then it seemed ridiculous, I wanted to go back to my old self, I was stuck in the middle sometimes. But most of the time I become someone I don't want at all, my chest gets tight :)) Sometimes I try to make them laugh at me and accept me as a joker, clowning, like paylonco, these are my profession :D (is it funny) sometimes I talk to myself, I wonder if I'm going crazy, then I say don't talk nonsense, I worry about myself, but sometimes I think of cool things in my head. For example, I'm a hero, I'm saving the world, things like that, I love my dream world, at least I'm myself there, I have a lot of friends in my dream world :D They love me, we worry, but I have nothing in the real world, actually I have a family, but how much does they love me, my father (doubtful) I don't know if he esp