I don’t want to grow up when I have grown up and have not fully experienced the

I don’t want to grow up when I have grown up and have not fully experienced the beautiful youth. Later, I can’t bear to spend any more money I earn. I carefully calculate the cost of life. I get married at an age when I don’t understand love. I have to be a child and shoulder the responsibility of the family silently. I gritted my teeth and swallowed my tears. I have never suffered from my family. I owe myself a lot in this life. If I could live my life over again, I would live the way I like. I would no longer care about other people's faces. I'm sorry for the old me in this life. I owe myself too much and haven't gotten anything in exchange. I just want to live a life that pleases myself. It's better to live a good life by trying to figure out other people's roles. Don't forget that I also want to be happy. I got married at an age when I don't know how to love. I have to be a child and have to worry about it. The responsibility of starting a family silently gritted my teeth and swallowed the pain in my stomach. I have never suffered from my family. I owe myself too much in this life. If I could live my life over again, I would live the way I like. I would no longer care about other people's faces. I'm sorry for that person in the past. I owe myself too much in this life and I haven’t gotten anything in return. I just want to live a life that pleases myself. It’s better to live a good life by trying to figure out other people’s roles. Don’t forget that I also want to be happy. I owe myself too much in this life. If I could live my life over again, I want to live the way I like. I no longer care about other people’s faces. I’m sorry for the old me. I owe myself too much in this life and I haven’t got anything in exchange. I just want to live a life that pleases myself. It’s better to live a good life than me by trying to figure out other people’s roles. Forget that you also need to be happy