I'm actually so broken that I feel like I'm about to fall apart

I'm actually so broken that I feel like I'm about to fall apart. Even when I try to heal, I still seek you.、The wounds get deeper The more I know about your past, the more I hate the part of me that hates you I didn't know anything、But I hate this part of me that can't love you But still、You loved me like that, and I let you go With each passing night、I'm afraid to dream now I thought something would change when I woke up from my dream of you But you know、Nothing's happened That's right、I'm still in a dream