As I splat my thoughts on the table, a gross deck of cards to shuffle all they d

As I splat my thoughts on the table, a gross deck of cards to shuffle all they do is laugh and mock And stare so much that my arteries have blocked Their stares become plaque And however hard I try I cannot fight back So my eyes bend backwards and spew Honestly, I don’t blame them Because if I could take a proper look at the mess in my head I would too The iron mask that I parade around everywhere Has protected me from suspicious care It doesn’t have a scratch on it, like it’s brand new But the scratches in my head are scary and true I can see the blade. It calls me. AGAIN AGAIN again again “You need me. I can save you,” it says. I pick it up and brush it against my soft, pale skin; i’m crying. it feels good. i am in control. for once. i draw shapes into my skin i let the blood trickle down into the sink in its reflection, crying hope catches my hazel eyes crying hope cradles me in its soft pale arms i lost the fight this time.

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